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Ronin Has Passed

Posted By: emilyL

Ronin Has Passed - 03/20/17 06:06 PM

I had hoped to never write this but I wanted to let you know that Ronin has passed away. He was put to sleep this morning after suffering seizures due to a brain tumor. He was 15 months and the best thing that has happend to me in the past year. We gave him the best possible last few days we possibly could with his favorite things and foods that he loved. We took him to his favorite places and let him play on the beach. I know he is no longer in pain now and for that I am grateful. I'll forever love and miss my Ronin (aka Stink Butt). Thank you to everyone for your advice and help when I asked for it. #RIP Ronin.
Posted By: Mary Jane

Re: Ronin Has Passed - 03/20/17 07:57 PM

Emily,

I can't believe this. I am so terribly sorry that you had to let Ronin go so very soon.

You have my real sympathy for your loss.

Mary Jane
Posted By: SeanRescueMom

Re: Ronin Has Passed - 03/20/17 08:21 PM

I was shocked when I read your post. I'm so deeply sorry, my heartfelt sympathies go out to you. hugging Please accept my sincere condolences. RIP sweet angel. angel
Posted By: PositiveDog

Re: Ronin Has Passed - 03/20/17 08:46 PM

I am so sorry to read of your sudden loss of Ronin. My heart is with you during this sad time.
Posted By: Codmaster

Re: Ronin Has Passed - 03/20/17 09:45 PM

Our deepest sympathy to you.

He certainly sounds like a super dog.

All we can do is urge you to remember the good times you had with him and all the joy of him!
Posted By: Woodreb

Re: Ronin Has Passed - 03/20/17 11:29 PM

I was shocked to read your post. My deepest sympathy for your loss.
Posted By: zyp

Re: Ronin Has Passed - 03/20/17 11:33 PM

I'm so sorry for your hurt!
Posted By: Braverhund

Re: Ronin Has Passed - 03/21/17 12:22 AM

Emily, I'm so very, very sorry. My deepest compassion on such an unexpected loss. I'm wishing you strength.
Posted By: Wisc.Tiger_Val

Re: Ronin Has Passed - 03/21/17 01:02 AM

I can not imagine the shock and pain you are going through. Some times life is just so unfair. RIP Ronin.
Posted By: Sylv

Re: Ronin Has Passed - 03/21/17 01:15 PM

I am so terribly sorry! My heart hurts for you.
Posted By: MaxaLisa

Re: Ronin Has Passed - 03/22/17 03:23 AM

Oh my gosh, how devastating. I'm so very sorry.
Posted By: middleofnowhere

Re: Ronin Has Passed - 03/22/17 06:58 PM

Emily , I am so sorry. This is the last thing I would have expected. You were doing so well with him, you gave him such a great life. You were so receptive to the ideas the group offered. A dog could not have had a better home.
Posted By: emilyL

Re: Ronin Has Passed - 03/22/17 09:59 PM

Thank you everyone. I'm sorry I am so slow at answering back, but it's been a bit of a rough the past couple of days but I have come to accept that this was the best decision we could have made for Ronin. I wanted to explain a bit of why this was happening. We started to realize something was wrong in the past few months because Ronin's training was slipping and he was becoming severely aggressive towards men and other dogs and also towards myself and my husband at times. We already had a few issues with that but we found a great trainer and he helped us get back on track for a while. Ronin was no longer listening, he was getting kind of lazy about things, and if he even heard a man's voice he would start to go crazy. One day he bite me hard on the thigh for telling him no he couldn't go play with another dog. We had no idea why. Then last week, I took him outside and put him on the long line in our backyard because he had a slight injury to his back leg from slipping on ice, but the vet said that was okay for a few minutes to he could do his business, so I left him for a minute to go and check on some water pooling by our house (we were having a lot of water issues). Next thing I know, Ronin starts barking like crazy, and he broke the line, jumped our 5ft gate (which was closed) knocking me to the ground so I hit my head on the stone walkway we have, and raced towards the end of the driveway. He would not come back.

My neighbor heard me and came to help. Long story short, Ronin reacted like I have never seen him before. He knew the neighbor and loved him. Next thing I know, he snarled with spit flying, grabbed him by the arm and started shaking him. I yelled and he finally did let go. I was lucky he only got the man by the coat and did not touch skin. But when Ronin let go, he ran towards another neighbor, and when I called him again, he rounded on me, snarling and coming at me. His eyes were wild, and his head was twitching like I had never seen. Yes he had had seizures, but nothing like this. He didn't know who I was. He all of a sudden came out of it, let out a cry that was sharp and so very painful, and ran away from me. I found him cowering in another woman's yard, terrified and shaking. I got him home and called the vet. We found out later on that weekend about the brain tumor. This all happened last Wednesday.

Due to the fact he went after my neighbor, who will sue you six ways to Sunday for just looking at them wrong, they insisted that we put him down. We looked at rehoming him and were successful at finding someone(this was before we found out about the tumor) and we had consulted a behaviorist, but they were filing a complaint with the police so we were running out of time to do what was best for him. Ronin was in pain and it was obvious. The vet suggested that we very strongly consider putting him to sleep after something that severe. That was not going to get better, there was nothing surgically they could do, and our vet said that he was going end up hurting us or someone else if we left the decision too long. We made the difficult decision that it was not fair for him to suffer, and he was very much suffering. We did everything we could to make his last day with us the best he had ever had. We gave him a huge juicy meaty bone, we walked and played and did everything we could to make him comfortable despite being horribly sick (vomiting, diarrhea, lethargy, seizures) and kissed and hugged him so he knew how much we loved him.

We took him to the vet Monday morning, and we cried the entire way there. But Ronin had a seizure, a violent seizure while there that required four people (myself and husband included) to hold him down until it passed because he would have fallen off the table, and when he finally went to sleep he looked at me and I knew he was finally pain free. He burrowed close to me, I held him and kissed him goodbye. I will never love another dog the way I did him.

I hope that no one thinks that what we did was selfish. I had someone tell me that, that I did not give him a chance, but we had to go by the vets recommendation and the look that Ronin was giving me. I am not looking for someone to say yes, we did the right thing or no we did not. I just wanted him to be at peace and no longer in pain.

I am getting a tattoo of his paw print and name on my shoulder (my first tattoo) to always have a piece of him with me. We have also found out that the other pups in his litter suffered the same fate. All have been put to sleep due to illnesses and tumors. It was bad breeding, but we gave him everything we could to give him the best life we could. I will always miss my boy. I am just glad that I had him for as long as we did.
Posted By: Wisc.Tiger_Val

Re: Ronin Has Passed - 03/23/17 12:36 AM

Emily, there was no question in my mind that you were doing what was best for Ronin.

With the Tumor diagnosis, increased seizure activity, the attacking your neighbor and you, there wasn't much of a choice. Ronin wasn't your loving Ronin anymore the tumor had or was destroying his brain. Keeping him alive would have cruel and dangerous for you and others.

Of course you will never love another dog as much as Ronin. First because he was your first GSD and second each dog is different so your love for them will be different.
Posted By: SeanRescueMom

Re: Ronin Has Passed - 03/23/17 01:00 AM

Originally Posted By: emilyL
We took him to the vet Monday morning, and we cried the entire way there. But Ronin had a seizure, a violent seizure while there that required four people (myself and husband included) to hold him down until it passed because he would have fallen off the table, and when he finally went to sleep he looked at me and I knew he was finally pain free. He burrowed close to me, I held him and kissed him goodbye. I will never love another dog the way I did him.


teary I'm so terribly sorry for your DH and you. RIP dear sweet angel.
Posted By: emilyL

Re: Ronin Has Passed - 03/23/17 01:04 AM

Thank you. No he wasn't. I still the glimps of him that he was my Ronin. But he was getting dangerous. He is across that rainbow bridge and we will see him again.
Posted By: Mary Jane

Re: Ronin Has Passed - 03/23/17 12:47 PM

Emily,

I would like to thank you for describing the abrupt changes that Ronin suffered as his brain disease progressed. For me it was a terrible revelation that behavior could be affected so obviously and so fast. Your poor boy was profoundly sick and you saved him from more pain.

It's just so sad.

MJ
Posted By: emilyL

Re: Ronin Has Passed - 03/23/17 02:25 PM

Thank you Mary Jane. I hadn't really posted much in the past few months, and I know it would be a shock to everyone. When I posted the original message we were not ready to describe everything, but I have had a few days to let myself grieve. I dreamed of him last night and we were playing in our favorite ball field like we always did. I saw his joy and when I woke up I was crying and felt like he was telling me he was okay, he was happy. That's what I want to remember, not what happened this past week.
Posted By: Islandgsds

Re: Ronin Has Passed - 03/23/17 03:35 PM

I'm so so sorry. teary
RIP Ronin gsdhalo
Posted By: Remo

Re: Ronin Has Passed - 03/23/17 07:28 PM

What a nightmare. My heart goes out to you at this sad, sad time. You absolutely made the right decision for your beloved boy. Always remember him as he was before this tragedy.
Posted By: AgilePaws

Re: Ronin Has Passed - 03/23/17 07:54 PM

How sad and tragic. I am so sorry for your loss.
Posted By: Kris

Re: Ronin Has Passed - 03/24/17 01:55 AM

Oh Emily, this is just so tragic... From your description of what happened, he was a very sick boy. You and your husband gave him the final gift of peace and no pain. There is no doubt that he knew how much he was loved and I hope you find comfort in that. I believe as you do that we will see them again someday. I am so sorry for your loss...
Posted By: anniej

Re: Ronin Has Passed - 03/24/17 08:21 PM

So very sorry to hear about your loss- it was claer from your posts how much you adored your boy and what a fantastic dog he was -RIP Ronin
Posted By: middleofnowhere

Re: Ronin Has Passed - 03/24/17 10:03 PM

Oh Emily, this is just so unfair for all the work you put in with your beloved dog to have it end so awfully. There is nothing he could do differently, nothing you could do for him more than what you had. He was most fortunate to have you, to have people who cared deeply for him, who did all they could do and, in the end, what they had to do.
Throughout your dealing with Ronin, you have had my admiration. It is only heightened by the underlying tragedy.
Posted By: emilyL

Re: Ronin Has Passed - 03/25/17 12:17 AM

Thank you. I made a lot of mistakes in the past months like training too much on our trainer's advice but Ronin loved it. We also joined a scent detection group. He loved it. And was amazing at it. He taught me more in the 13 months we had him than I could have ever kmagined. I hope that he had a good life with us. I dreamt of him last night and he was his normal happy self. I woke up smiling. He was such a good boy. smile
Posted By: Shilohsmom

Re: Ronin Has Passed - 03/25/17 12:26 AM

Emily, I'm so sorry to hear of Ronin's passing. I know how it hurts when we loose one of our precious angels, but I hope you find comfort in knowing he knew he was loved.
Posted By: kelbonc

Re: Ronin Has Passed - 03/31/17 05:50 PM

Emily, my heart hurts for you. I am so sorry you had to say goodbye to your beautiful boy. I hope with time his memory will bring smiles instead of tears. He would want that for you. Run free Ronin, run free.
Posted By: emilyL

Re: Ronin Has Passed - 04/03/17 01:38 PM

Hey everyone. So we got our tattoos done this weekend. My husband and I got matching ones. They turned out amazing. We had Ronin's actual paw print. I love them and will always have a piece of him with me. smile

Posted By: Sylv

Re: Ronin Has Passed - 04/03/17 06:17 PM

Oh Emily, I wish I could reach through this keyboard and give you a big hug!
Posted By: emilyL

Re: Ronin Has Passed - 04/03/17 08:26 PM

Thank you. smile It makes me happy to have this piece of him. We also have picture albums full at home, but this was something extra special that my husband suggested. smile
Posted By: aubie

Re: Ronin Has Passed - 04/04/17 03:01 PM

I'm just catching up and sweetheart, I'm so sorry. But also proud that you did the best, yet hardest thing, for your pup. You gave him a fantastic life, one that most people would have stopped short of. I'm giving huge, virtual hugs! The tats are fantastic. grouphug
Posted By: emilyL

Re: Ronin Has Passed - 04/05/17 10:19 PM

Thank you. smile I'm doing a lot better with it now, more because I know we did the right thing, and the tattoos are something that we will have forever that means he's always with us. My husband came up with the idea, and I think it was the best one he could have come up with. I'm sad he's gone, but I have friends in the neighborhood with shepherds and they all have supported me as well. I actually just got news that one of them will be bred this summer, and she wants me to help with the pups as much as possible. More just because she's nervous as this is her first litter with this female, and she is also a foster mom so she wants some help with the kids too.
Posted By: Kayos

Re: Ronin Has Passed - 04/06/17 01:44 PM

I am so sorry. I have not been on in a few weeks and just saw this. Although difficult you did the right thing for Ronin. Hugs...
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