We brought Hannah home this morning. She is sitting next to Damien, Katy and Crocket with the angel statue I have sitting amongst them watching over them.
This may be selfish, but right now I cannot sprinkle her ashes so unless I change my mind one day, she will stay with us here in our house forever. She has an engraved plaque on the top that says Hannah and under that "We Love You"
Sometimes I think letting her ashes blow over the field so she's no longer confined is the right thing to do, but I just can't at least right now. I'm stuck on her tag number 812 which is the same as our address meaning that she belongs here with us. Right now, I just can't bear to let go of her again. Since I'm so torn over this, I'm going to do nothing but leave her where she is for now.Val:
I go back and forth on rescuing another dog. When husband came home from the road yesterday his first question was "Do you have another rescue lined up?" I about dropped my teeth, I hadn't even told him I'd been looking. I didn't ask him but I think he'd like me to find one.
Do we *need* another dog? No. Do we *want* another dog? Yes. I'd have a dozen if I could
Do I feel right in helping another dog in honor of Hannah? Sometimes yes, sometimes no.
I wasn't looking for another dog when Hannah picked us ... and yes, I believe she did. Maybe I'm too superstitious but there just seems too many things pointing in that direction for me to ignore.
I see soooo many dogs posted that are in horrific shape from abuse and neglect and are now recovering and I get angry all over again thinking "Why couldn't that have been Hannah?"
The bottom line is, if there is ever another dog that finds me or Joe, there is no question .. we would do it again.
Our furkids never got to meet her, she was in too delicate condition for any meet and greets and we had to make sure she didn't have anything contagious anyway. They saw her over one gate, a room's length and then another gate so they never got closer than about 12 feet away from one another. Riley amazed us, he barked but it wasn't a threatening bark and not one hair stood up on the back of his neck, not one single hair and his tail was wagging whenever he looked at her
We really believe eventually when we could put them together that Hannah would have been an absolute perfect "job" for him to watch over her, be her eyes and helper. We believe our Big Bad Boy would have done us proud
Thank you all again for sticking with me throughout all of this and for all your kindness and compassion.