Oh sweetie, I'm soooo sorry! I just saw this. My heart breaks for you...

Run free sweet and strong Kelso!!

My heart is breaking for you.

Run free sweet boy.

Just checking in to say that I'm so sorry that you're going through this pain. Just remember that we all still think about you and your sweet Kelso and hope that you're doing OK.

Steph, are you ok? Haven't heard from you....am concerned.

She's grieving. Everybody grieves differently, but I stayed off the forums for over a week after I lost Cash. Looking at everybody else's dogs was just too painful.

Yes, I can understand that. Thank you. Just concerned for her. I assume you are in contact with her then and that she is ok otherwise?

No, I'm not in contact with her. I wish I were. I had her number but lost it when I got a new phone last year. Steph's a strong woman with a great husband, a demanding career, and another wonderful Shepherd. She's probably hanging on by her fingernails right now, but she'll be ok.

Hey guys, just wanted to let you know that Steph and hubby are doing ok. She asked me to let you know. She has been very busy at work but hopes to get on the forum tonight.

Hi

Thank you a million times over for everything, everyone here

It has been selfish of me not to come here, already missed so much with friends and their dogs and sorry for that, but just how I was dealing I guess. Just couldn't come here, had to clear my head a bit

and work was crazy for a bit which is good for me as I need to keep busy but no excuse not to say thanks to you all, that have been there

Things are ok, it sucks, I will say that. There isn't any emotion that I am having that you all don't understand, though. So I know I do not have to explain.

We chose to cremate, and should have Kelso's ashes back soon.

Life is different without him for sure, escpecially with the last few months of intense care. We miss him, every little thing about him.

Allie had some hard days, standing in the house at the front door alone waiting for him, wandering around the house. I finally took her over to my mom's house and she looked for him there. I think she feels more at peace now knowing she doesn't have to look for him anymore now that she looked there.

I have been running with her alot, has really helped. I have never broken a bone before but thursday night we were running and she went after something while on the leash and I pulled back on her harness and broke my thumb! I laughed as I imagined it would have been Kelso and I that that sortof thing would have happened to, but it was gentle Allie....

thanks

Steph, no selfishness at all. Girl, you just lost your baby. It is understandable that you need time to deal with these sad emotions the way you need to. I am sure we all can understand that.

Ouch, so sorry to hear about your thumb. Was thinking about that today. I hope it heals quickly.

Huge

Oh Steph You have to deal with this huge loss however you can, not coming here is totally understandable.

I hope your thumb is not causing you too much pain And a cuddle for Allie too.

thanks

You guys just know, which is why I couldnt come back here for a bit, you just know how this is.

I can't read any post without crying yet, cripes that is why I knew I was to much of a wuss to come back a week ago. I admit this is my first time loosing a pup and best friend. It is just not fair

But Allie is a godsend, thanks to Emoore for trusting us to take her home. She is Kelso, she knew him better than anyone and we take peace in that. She has definately filled his big paws like we always knew she would. Him and her were together so long that she has become him and is patching us up everyday. And breaking my bones in the process....lol...no one has to worry about me running miles alone...Allie is there, we run sometimes in the sunrise and sometimes in the sunset, she is a fiercely loyal friend that will go miles and miles for her people I know she is sad too and hope that everyday gets better for her as well. Allie deserves nothing but the best, she did everything for her brother, even when he was weak. She stayed with him, she is extraordinary.

Sorry to read about your thumb but thankful that you have Allie and vice versa.

We all deal with grief differently - some publicly and some privately and there is no one way. When I don't see someone here for awhile, I know they are handling their life the way that is best for them and I don't ask.

Whether you are here or not here, you are in our thoughts and Kelso is in our hearts.

I just got back from a trip and am typing this through my tears. Big hugs to you and Dan, and may Allie find some peace as well.

This is said so well I just had to quote it because I couldn't express my feelings any better if I tried to write something original!!!

It is very much, I will just add a co-sign to it.

And big XOXO to Allie, for being there for you.

Steph, just checking in. I hope you are doing OK. Hugs to you and yours.

I'm so sorry to read about Kelso. I was also hoping he could beat this awful thing. It was so hard to read...it really was like reading through what I went through with Dakota last March. Except you got more details than I.
My vets were encouraging & telling me they thought she could fight it/make it. When I looked into Dakota's face she was telling me too & I knew they were wrong...with her eyes...you are so right, their eyes ARE very telling. I also tried to memorize my friends face, how it felt to hug her etc... I feel your pain & hope your pain will be replaced by more of your great memories of Kelso.
I remember when I fell in love with that adorable Kelso puppy picture you posted and I love love the one of Allie & Kelso both peeking over the fence...aka the 2 headed GSD!
You guys have been in my thoughts as well and will continue to be.